Book Review: History Is All You Left Me by Adam Silvera

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Title: History Is All You Left Me
Author: Adam Silvera
Published date: 17th January 2017
Published by: Soho Teen
Genre: GLBT, YA, Contemporary, Mental Illness, Romance, Angst

Date read: 6th April – 7th April 2017
Rating: 5 / 5 stars

Summary:When Griffin’s first love and ex-boyfriend, Theo, dies in a drowning accident, his universe implodes. Even though Theo had moved to California for college and started seeing Jackson, Griffin never doubted Theo would come back to him when the time was right. But now, the future he’s been imagining for himself has gone far off course.

To make things worse, the only person who truly understands his heartache is Jackson. But no matter how much they open up to each other, Griffin’s downward spiral continues. He’s losing himself in his obsessive compulsions and destructive choices, and the secrets he’s been keeping are tearing him apart.

If Griffin is ever to rebuild his future, he must first confront his history, every last heartbreaking piece in the puzzle of his life.


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First of all, the blurb by Nicola Yoon on the front cover was so true. I cried, and when I stopped to give my heart a break, I cried again just thinking about everything I just read, and when I resumed reading, I cried. I literally bawled my eyes out as I read. Never have I cried so much reading a book, not even when I read Girls in Pieces.

I decided to give myself a few days before writing this book review to avoid being all rant-y. Because I had time to think about it, I realized that this book…well, it is an overused plot. If not in published books, then in fanfictions. I should know because I read it a lot (I’m a masochist like that). However, Adam Silvera managed to write this so beautifully, in a way that it turned out fresh, and with ten times more angst than any others that I’ve encountered.

I think I love and hate Griffin. This book was told in Griffin’s point of view, so we’re in his head, and we get to know him. I can empathize with him. I think if I was in his shoes, I would probably do the same think. Or maybe not. If it was me, I wouldn’t have broken up with Theo. But then, I wouldn’t have talk about my insecurities and doubts either, and the relationship would turn sour as months goes by because reassurances wouldn’t help not when Theo’s so far away. And the eventual break up would hurt even more. Basically everything that Griffin feared. But then, that was also what I hated about Griffin. He made a decision for Theo, instead of talking about it with Theo. In the end, I can’t even blame Jackson for taking Theo away because it was Griffin’s own fault for letting Theo go.

The same goes for Theo, I love and hate him. Theo is a genius, and he is adorable. He was very sweet when he was with Griffin. I was totally rooting for them. And when he said yes, about being Griffin’s end game, I totally melted. Because this boy was still in love with Griffin, and I love him for that. But then, he started dating Jackson. Although I can’t blame him for that, because technically he was single, but I hate that he still had a hold on Griffin. Because he was still in love with Griffin too, and still agreed that him and Griffin would be endgame. And I think because of that, Griffin was still obsessive about him and couldn’t move on.

Jackson, oh boy, I really hated him at first. Since the start, it was like he was trying to compete with Griffin. And when I found out that he tried to make Theo stop being friends with Griffin, I kind of lost it for awhile. But then, he did kind of help Griffin found closure, so I cooled down a bit. Towards the end, I stopped hating Jackson (although I still don’t like him) because in the end, it wasn’t his fault who he fell in love with. Technically, Theo was single.

Other characters I love are Griffin’s parents, and Theo’s parents. I love how supportive they were when Griffin and Theo came out to them. And I love that they had shipped Theo and Griffin together even before the two of them became a couple. And that hilarious scene with Griffin’s dad. I love their families so much. And I love Wade too. I will let you found out the reason why by yourself.

To sum it up, this book is about a heartbreaking first love. This book is about Griffin’s journey, about him holding on to that first love and realizing that, as time passes, Theo changed but he changed too. This book is about how first love would stay with you even if your current feelings has changed.

I rate this book 5 / 5 stars.


So, this was one of the hardest book review I’ve ever written. Have anyone of you read the book? Did you enjoy it? Did you cry as much as I did? I’d love to read about your thought on this book.

Yours truly,

erucchii

Book Review: …And A Happy New Year? by Holly Bourne

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Title: …And A Happy New Year? (The Spinster Club #3.5)
Author: Holly Bourne
Publisher: Usborne Publishing Ltd
Date Published: 1st November 2016
Date read: 10th December 2016
Genre: YA, Contemporary
Edition: Hardback
Source: Own copy
Rating: 5 / 5 stars
Summary:

Evie, Amber and Lottie are having a new year party to remember.

For the first time since leaving college, all three girls are back together. It’s time for fun and flirting, snogs and shots.

(And not tears or tantrums or terrible secrets)

Because everything’s going great for these girls – Spinster Club for ever! Right?


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…And A Happy New Year? is a giant ball of hurt disguised in a pretty cover, and sweet and cute moment between Kyle and Amber at the beginning of the book.

But of course, it is totally worth it.

…And A Happy New Year? is a novella about Amber, Evie and Lottie after the first term of university. When I saw this book on the bookshelf of my local bookstore — and it was a hardback version, and so very pretty — I didn’t bother reading the summary and went straight to the first chapter. I only read two pages, but I was already so excited because it was a scene between Amber and Kyle and they are so cute. So I bought it immediately. With such a cute start, I thought it would be such a happy story, with all three of them back together, kickass members of the Spinster Club.

If I had bothered reading the summary, or even read a few pages more before buying, I would’ve know how wrong I was.

I bet everyone who had gone off to university has experience this themselves; the feeling of drifting apart from your high school / college best friends when you went your separate way when you started university. I should have known better before reading this book, but somehow, because to me their friendship is so strong, I just assumed that they will still stay the same way despite everything. Because it was the three of them, and I wanted to believe that things like being apart because they don’t attend the same university won’t change their friendship.

This is a normal thing that happens to some people when you start that new chapter in your life: university, when you transitioned from a young adult to a new adult. But it didn’t make it any less sad. And because it happened to Amber, Lottie and Evie —after everything that they went through together in the previous three books— it was even more sad. I cried a lot reading this book, especially since it was so relatable. I felt like I could relate to all three of them, about how they felt; the feeling of being left behind, the feeling of being left out or not liked, the feeling that people didn’t want you around, and the feeling of wanting to go away but not wanting to leave your past behind.

I’ve only talked about how sad it was, but there was also cute moments in the book. I seriously love Kyle, and Oli. Seriously, I do. They are sweethearts. I would say more, but I feel like I would be spoiling everyone. (Although I probably already did with the bits that I’ve wrote).

To sum it up, don’t be fooled by the cover. It was so pretty and cheerful, and the title… You would’ve thought it would be happy and with light feelings, not heavy and sad. But it is totally worth your time, buying and reading this book. I am very sad that this is the end of this series, because I really love the girls so much, and all the other characters. I recommend this book to all YA Contemporary lovers, and those who wants to read a book that would give you a dose of reality about moving on to the next point in life called University.

I rate this book 5 / 5 stars.

 

The Cause of My Heartbreak: Star Trek Fanfictions

As you may or may not know, I love reading, and that includes fanfictions. In fact, most of the time, I spend almost 20 hours a day reading fanfictions. They are my guilty pleasures. The fanfictions I read usually depend on what phase I’m in. For example, if I’m in The Avengers phase, I will only read that fandom’s fanfictions and nothing else. It will take weeks before I shift to another fandom.
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